Thursday, October 15, 2009

Another year older and what do you get?

It's my birthday.

I'm thirty-four.

Mostly I don't care, but there is a slight potential for cake, which always makes me sit up and take notice. I'm shallow like that.

It's probably pretty obvious that I've been thinking a lot about my life lately. Last year around my birthday I was doing really huge things like hiding the fact that I was really close to a book deal and figuring out where I wanted to go to church and deciding that I was going to do an enormous breast cancer walk in 2009. I really thought that 33 was going to be my best year ever. I really did.

But yeah. It really wasn't.

Not that it was a bad year. It wasn't. I had some really fantastically amazing things happen to me (notably, this). But with those good things? Often came a really, really nasty price. I'm currently working out in my head if the price was worth the reward.

For the most part, it has been. I've met amazing people this year, like her, and her, and him. I've gotten some really amazing opportunities. I found my favorite cousin AND my childhood best friend on Facebook, and I cannot begin to tell you how happy THAT has made me. So worth the loss of "privacy", that much I can promise.

I've laughed until I cried. Many times.

I've cried until I was all cried out. Many times.

I've learned people's true colors. Which, actually, sucks sometimes. But I'm wiser. And I guess that comes with age, but it also comes with exposing yourself. With success. With breaking away.

So.

I'm thirty-four.

I'm still working on defining success.


And I'm grateful. So grateful.

21 comments:

M said...

love you birthday girl. <3

Tarasview said...

happy birthday to you... we are almost the same age. I turn 34 in December :)

Praying for a wonderful 34th year for you.

Kimberly said...

Growing up really hurts, doesn't it? And yet, I know I wouldn't trade it. Happy Birthday, Stephanie. And thank you for the past year. For the things you've written. For the thoughts and changes you've provoked in those of us lucky enough to come along for the ride.

Bexterrific said...

Awww....you're my favorite cousin too!!! And I'm coming to visit you next month. Let me know what weekend works for you!!!! Happy birthday! xoxoxoxoxo

Nancy said...

Wishing you much laughter and few tears in the coming year... Happy Happy Birthay!

Crystal said...

Happy Birthday!

Kiki said...

Happy Birthday Stephanie. Life is funny... isn't it? Enjoy the ride sweetie and keep making us smile. No matter what you think... you are freaking AWESOME.

Chrissy said...

Happy birthday! May THIS be your best year ever!

Danielle said...

Dude - I am 37 and haven't done any of the cool stuff you have! Like writing a blog that A LOT of people follow daily, getting a book published, having the motivation & determination to do an enormous breast cancer walk, sticking with and being successful at WW... what else?? You are one way cool 34 year old woman! Enjoy yourself!!

thesmallmoments said...

Happy Happy Birthday!

Intelligent Tool said...

Have a totally happy-listic birthday. :)

Boriqua said...

Happy birthday! :) Here's to each year being bigger and better than the last.

Nen said...

You know those memories that make you laugh out loud? I hope you make many new ones today and in the year to come!
Happy Birthday!!

mythoughtsonthat said...

Oh! Happy Birthday to You! Here's hoping the next year is a little more wonderful!

And thanks for reminding me I need to call my mom RIGHT NOW- it's her birthday, too!

Wenderina said...

Birthday reflections can be so profound...and then there's cake.

Jenski said...

Happy birthday!
I have looked back on some tough time fondly too. With all the good and the learning from the bad, it ends up all good, right? Plus crying things out totally helps. Here's to a great year #34!

Dawn~a~Bon said...

Happy birthday gorgeousness!

Jamie said...

I hope your birthday was awesome, like you.

Hugs. :)

SJ said...

Happy Birthday, I hope it was a memorable one!

Anne-Kathrine said...

Happy Birthday!! I know Im late but anyway. Hope this is the best year so far!! Hugs!

Nicole said...

Ohhh sorry I'm late but happy birthday!!! I know it's been a mixed bag, but of course, the more good things open up in your life, the more opportunity for bad things opens up as well. Part of the cosmic balance, I think. It always seems like the best years also have a lot of spectactularly crap stuff that happens too. Still, I hope you continue to feel great about the things you've accomplished, because you deserve that!

And by the way, meeting you has been a highlight of my year, as well!