Monday, January 11, 2010

I am...

My own worst enemy.

I know most people are their own worst enemies. But the act of admitting that both is very humbling and also completely sucks balls.

I'm self-destructive and destructive to others. I don't think before I speak sometimes. I make decisions not based on logic but on emotion. I don't forgive easily.

You can castigate me for all this, if you'd like. But there isn't any need. I'm far harder on myself than anyone else will ever be.

Because I am my own worst enemy.

11 comments:

Bexterrific said...

You are also wrong. In this respect, anyway. You're not destructive, or hard on anyone. You're far too nice for your own good, missy, and wayyyy too hard on yourself. Just my opinion, of course - but then again, I AM usually right... ;) xoxoxo

Priscilla said...

**Big hugs**

We're all here for you. You know we all do it. Some worse than others. Some wont admit it. It's freeing to admit you're flawed.

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

I completely understand. I am harder on myself than anyone else. Things I beat myself up over, no one else will even notice.

You and I both need to stop it. :) Many hugs, darlin'.

PaintedPromise said...

HUGS!

val said...

We all are... and we all have a temper, which is our responsibility to own and deal with....

and yet... there's life.

Plus, and this is a true fact: The very things that originally attracted us to our partner are the exact same things that will later drive us crazy.

It's that old story that our strengths are our weaknesses.

A friend was married to a raging alcoholic. They divorced. Later she married and she says sometimes he bores her and acts old.

And yet, he makes her feel safe. THAT'S what she was so drawn to--he was not dangerous or edgy like her ex. So blame him for that now, as he quietly and gently goes about his unexcited life? LOL. No. But my friend is smart like that.

You are also. Be the friend to Steph that your friends are. It's tough at first, unnatural. But it gets easier.

I'm a little jealous of your hair, btw. My hair is crap, wispy--the kind barettes slide out of. In this life, you truly got the good hair. love, V

Sheila Deeth said...

Comforting really. I'm probably mine.

insomniac ellen said...

beats being your own twin....

Danielle said...

If you thought before you spoke, would you have ever coined the phrase "Stop letting him show you the peen?" I think not. That one still cracks me up.

And making decisions based on emotion instead of logic???? Hello? We are all so guilty of that, aren't we?

Jessa said...

I think everyone is. We're all our own worst critic and if we aren't we are probably far too conceited for our good to think we're that awesome.

Ginee Scabrough said...

Me to and I am a buttinsky.... Good luck with fixing yours I will be frowning in the mirror whishing I didn't do mine:)

mythoughtsonthat said...

"I'm far harder on myself than anyone else will ever be." Just....yes.

Peace.