Wednesday, March 24, 2010

What goes on in my head.

So I was thinking. Dangerous, I know.

If I very objectively look at my life and all the really cool stuff I get to do? It's pretty bad-ass.

In fact? If I knew someone who got to do the cool stuff I get to do? I would totally think they were bad-ass.

I don't think I'm bad-ass.

I think I suck. Ass, even.

I'm trying to figure out why this is. I'm trying to figure out why on Earth it's never enough. Why nothing is ever, ever going to be enough.

I don't get terribly philosophical all the time, as evidenced by the amount of times I use words like "douchelord" and "peen" in every day conversation, but I really think I'm kind of messed up.

6 comments:

Nicole said...

I feel much the same. Very often, in fact. I don't know why it's never enough, either. They really need a repair shop for chicks like us...

Jenski, PhD said...

I figure that is how life works. If you never wanted a little more from life, you'd become apathetic, right? You don't seem apathetic about life and clearly love your family, friends, job, and stuff you have and do do!

Danielle said...

I disagree - you are not messed up... just totally normal. It's rarely enough for any of us because rarely do we stop and acknowledge these things. Also? I love when you use the word peen. :)

Bexterrific said...

No way. You rock out loud. Because we're freakishly alike, and it's pretty much known world wide how hard I rock... :) LOL

Don't be so hard on yourself. I think you're amazing. Every single day. xoxo

squishytushy said...

I think looking at your life through someone else's eyes might indeed be a very good start in realizing just how awesome you are, and just how far you've come.

squishytushy said...

I think looking at your life through someone else's eyes might indeed be a very good start in realizing just how awesome you are, and just how far you've come.