Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Happy, Crappy New Year

Well, those Mayan jerkwads were wrong and we're all still here.


Fan. Freaking. Tastic.

I've been trying to be positive lately, seriously I have. It's just so hard.

Unless you've been living under a rock you know about the Sandy Hook school shooting. You know about the fiscal cliff. If you're on Facebook at all you know that everyone is arguing. Constantly. I've blocked so many people in the past few months. I just can't take the fighting...the constant drama.

One of my favorite people on the entire planet lost her dad early yesterday. Just like that. Another one of my favorite people on the entire planet will probably lose hers soon.

Life just seems so overwhelmingly unfair right now. Good people are hurting. Everyone is feeling scared and unsure and unsafe. I've thought more about milk prices and taxes in the past few months than I have in my entire life and honestly? I get that I'm blessed to not have to worry as much as others. I was thinking about someone else I love the other day, how very hard she works and how she can still just never get ahead and it broke my heart. Also, it terrified me. Absolutely terrified me.

So forgive me if I had a brief moment of hope that those stupid Mayans were right. That we would all fall off the Earth together and I'd forever get to be 37, my kids would forever get to be 14, the people I love wouldn't have to hurt anymore and I wouldn't have to stick to my 2013 budget (or convince Jason to stick to it). I wouldn't have to try so valiantly to be less of a fatass. I wouldn't have to listen to people argue over things that really don't matter and neglect the things, and people, that really do.

The Mayans were wrong though. Jerks.

So the only answers I can come up with are to not argue on Facebook, save every cent you can, and tell the people that you care about "I love you". Often. As often as you can.

Maybe those should be my resolutions this year? I don't know. All I know is that we're still here.

If you, like me, are lucky enough to be okay today, then please do what you can to help someone who is not okay.




Unknown said...

oh Steph, I'm sorry your year has been off to such a shit start. Here's hoping things start to look up for you & those you care about soon.

CPA Mom said...


You certainly help me whenever I'm not okay. I hope I can do the same for you when you need it.

My prayer lately has been "Lord, give me the strength to realize my life is not as bad as I think it is...give me the gift of gratitude."

And he gave me you and Beth in answer.

And I'm ever so grateful.