Sunday, December 3, 2017

New year, same old crap

I have a million things I actually SHOULD be doing right now but because I am who I am, I've been thinking about 2018. To be honest, most of the thoughts I've been  thinking are terrifying and I really don't want to get in to all of that. The upshot is that I can only control myself, not the world around me, so I'm choosing to think about that instead of the real, actual horror that's going on in this world. That might be selfish, but I just think of it as self-preservation. We all have to do it sometimes.


I hate resolutions, as I've documented many times over the years, but I do like goals. I set goals every day. Sometimes those goals are just things like: survive, don't scream, take a shower, and eat broccoli, but that's okay. Small goals get you to big places.

My goal is 2018? To shut up.

I am really, really bad at talking a lot and lot listening enough. Judge Judy (who I love, so bite me) always says that God gave you two ears and one mouth for a reason and it's true. I talk a lot because I'm nervous a lot, but that's not a good excuse. People are interesting. I want to know more about people. I can never do this because I never shut up long enough. I don't want people to think I'm boring. I don't want people to think I only care about myself because I talk too much about myself or my kids or my husband or my dog.

I still have a lot of things to say, mind you. I'm just going to try to listen to everyone else first.

Also...I'll say a lot less. Some things don't need to be shared. They just don't.

This is the goal. No need to wait until 2018, I'm starting right now.

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