I know I'm really getting kind of old to be this obsessed with various MTV programs. But I am. I can't help it.
Teen Mom? Pretty much my new crack.
If you watched 16 and Pregnant (and I did) you are already familiar with the Teen Mom cast. The only girls from the the original series in the new one are Maci, Catelynn, Farrah and Amber. It's meant to chronicle their lives as teen mothers. I force my children to watch this every week and we discuss it. If by "discussing it" one means shouting at children to pay attention and keep all business in their pants, that is.
I really found 16 and Pregnant heartbreaking, especially Catelynn and Tyler, the bounced around little couple from Michigan who ended up giving their baby up for adoption. I cry every single time I see that episode and I wish every single day that the couple who adopted the baby? Would have adopted Catelynn and Tyler too. It's the most heartbreaking thing, watching these two kids, who as high school seniors have far more intelligence and depth than their parents (who got married to each other, if this wasn't all messed up enough), try to get through the day. I wish they could come live with me. I don't have much, but I would make them cookies and give them hugs. I think they need cookies and hugs.
Amber was one of my favorites on 16 and Pregnant and it's really been sad to see her decline so much on Teen Mom. I really think she's seriously, clinically depressed. She's acting out and it's scary to watch and scary to think about the little baby involved.
The one that hurts my heart the most, though, is Maci. The 17 year old mom from Tennessee.
She is, by far, the best mom on the show. They all love their babies, but Maci seems to actually ENJOY her time with little Bentley. The name sticks in my craw a bit, but the way she says it with her Tennessee accent is even kind of cute. And the accent? Please. Kills. I've lived in Tennessee for all but about seven of my thirty-four years and still aspire to sound so Southern.
Still, Maci has one huge HUGE flaw. Her douche canoe of a Baby Daddy.
It hurts me and I mean REALLY HURTS me, to watch these two interact. When she left him on a recent episode, I literally STOOD UP IN MY CHAIR and cheered.
Because she's still a kid, really. She's a great mom to the baby, seems to have a huge amount of patience with him, still goes to school, has a job, and seems really responsible (other than the whole "getting pregnant at 16" thing). She's a kid who can actually, probably go on to do good things with her life...including being a good momma to a sweet little boy.
Douche canoe went on a month long trip and when he returned? He barely even glanced at her. Didn't kiss her. Acted like it was nothing to be gone for a month. Didn't even speak to HIS SON. And then? Went out with his "boyz" for the evening. And danced really sluttishly with a girl.
She looked so sad. So resigned. So miserable.
So much like I used to look when my ex-husband did that to me.
She took him back, not because he tried. Because she felt like she wanted Bentley to have a dad. This guy doesn't give a CRAP about his kid. But she wants to do the right thing.
If you could see me? You'd see me waving my hand around. Because I did that. Or I tried.
I hope she's left him by now. Because he was such an weight around her neck.
I wish I could make her understand that she doesn't have to settle for this guy. That her life doesn't have to be sad and resigned. That she's beautiful and intelligent and deserves so much more than that asshole can provide her.
But I can't.
I can't any more than I could make myself understand that, when I was her age.