If every other post on Facebook wall is an indication? It's Girl Scout Cookie Time.
I ordered five boxes from my friend CPA Mom. She's helped me a million times and I'm glad I could (slightly) return the favor. I bought the Thin Mints, because I hate them but everyone else I live with loves them. I bought a box of the new ones, just to see what they are like. I'm sure we will be accosted outside Kroger when the cookies come in. Little girls with their little boxes asking us to buy cookies which are overpriced, but so good. We'll buy more, when they ask. At least Jason will...I never carry cash.
It's good. I love Girl Scouts, I always have.
But I'll be sad. Because being a Girl Scout leader? Was pretty much one of the biggest failures of my life.
I know that sounds dramatic and maybe even silly. I went into it with a tons of goals and ideas and a great deal of love and respect for the organization. I came out of it sad and discouraged. I had to call CPS on a family. Another one of the mothers stole over $250 of products (not the cookies, but the nuts we sold in the fall), got the money for it, moved and cut off her phone. I honest to God couldn't believe that anyone would ever steal from little girls, but I was pretty painfully proven wrong.
The girls said things to me that floored me. They told me about their parents fights, they told me about things that went on that were so shocking that I would sometimes cry at night. They called people retards and the n-word and used gay as a slur. They were surprised when I corrected them.
I came to a point that the thought of having to deal with this any longer was more of a burden than any of the goodness that any of us would potentially get out of it.
I couldn't handle it, I'm ashamed to say. I couldn't fix them. I couldn't make them better. The two or three hours a month I spent with these girls could not undo everything else going on in their world. No matter how hard I tried and no matter how bad I wanted it.
I know I tried and I know trying is more than some of the girls have ever had. But it's still a failure.
Because trying wasn't enough.